This post is a post that I started well over two years ago. I was exhausted. I worked full time serving the churches and pastor’s of our district and then I was also the youth pastor at my own church. If you looked at my planner you would see that I was scheduled from one event to another. There was not much room for breathing. But then God spoke and did some amazing things.
“Be still and know that I am God.” Psalm 46:10
That scripture has always been on my heart, for as long as I can remember. It has been a phrase that has spoken to my heart of who God is. Probably partially because I’m a bit of an overachiever. I go, go, go until I can’t go any longer. I work and work and work for God but when it comes to the sitting, waiting and listening part well… let’s just say I don’t gravitate to that easily.
Sometimes I get so caught up in doing something for God that I lose sight of knowing God. To know someone you have to spend time with them which is lost when you are go, go go. The idea of being still to know that He is God spoke something to me that I didn’t realize until the last few days…
When I’m still I don’t just get to know God more but I know that He is God because when I am still, it means He must be working instead of me. When I am still then it shows His glory not my own.
It all started several months ago as I sat in my review at work and they asked one simple question, “How would you like Monday’s off?” It was like a breath of fresh air!
I had noticed myself becoming increasingly more tired and run down because most weeks I didn’t really get a day to rest and relax. Monday through Friday I was working in the office and then on the weekends I was preparing and attending to church and youth group things. I was exhausted both physically, emotionally and spiritually. I was drained and there were moments where it seemed like I wouldn’t be able to pour out because there was less and less within.
Well I am exhausted no longer.
Although I no longer work at this job and I no longer have a specific day of Sabbath I can speak that what God spoke to me in this period has stayed with me today.
I look back and I see that God was moving on my behalf,
even in ways that I could not see.
Shortly after this time I found out that the office would be closing and I entered a time of intense emotional wrestling. Without God moving on my behalf I’m not sure how I would have made it through.
I now make time to stop and just be with God.
I now make time to know God and be known by Him.
I now make time to be still so that His glory may be shown.
I now make time so that what I do could be out of a peace that only comes from His presence.
Be still. Know that He is God. Be still. Know Him and be known by Him. Be still. Be.